Each of us has experienced the stereotype of the person I am about to describe in the office. He’s the guy that will smile at you outside of the office, but inside will cut you off at the knees if he thinks it would gain him anything. He’s the first to sing his own praise, the first to share other’s faults, the first to position themselves with your boss, and the last person you trust. If you’ve been in an office environment, or any competitive environment for that matter, you’ve almost certainly come across this person. I recently learned though from someone that had been working with a former friend of mine that this friend was exactly that person towards some other friends. This seemed completely opposite of what I’d know of this person. He was a Christian, taught in Sunday school, married a wonderful woman, and was generally liked by his friends. But inside the office, apparently a very different side of him appeared.
It wasn’t long before that the typical sinful response of judgment rose up in me: “I would NEVER do that.” But as I began to review my own actions, I realized that perhaps while they may not have been as extreme as the story that was recently shared with me, many of those same characteristics could still be found if I examined my heart and actions in the office. When I am honest with myself, I must confess that I am often tempted to act by a different system of rules in the office. While I have been the person to say something to stop gossip in social situations, in the office I catch myself verbally agreeing with a story about a frustrating and difficult college. I’m much quicker to loose my patience at incompetence, and I am slower to do things that receive no recognition of my superiors.
For many of us who are ambitious, we’ve learned exactly how to win. Sometimes, that goal blinds us to what we’re doing to get there. This isn’t an instant phenomenon, in fact, much of this begins in our heart as we see others who might not operate under the same moral code as us begin to succeed. We begin to lust after the success of what the job could fulfill us with, and slowly, it begins to reshape our worldview in the office. It happens to us all on some level. For some, it may just occur in your heart, as you begin to envy those who do not operate with the same principals as you and begin to call the world unfair. For others, they react in action sometimes in so small a manner that they don’t even notice it.
When it comes down to it, I find that the common source is that I don’t truly live before the face of God with an intention on serving only Him. If I did, and my heart was pure, I wouldn’t struggle as the psalmist warns in Ps 37 not to envy when evil men succeed. But when I put my heart to the test, I realize that what drives me is a desire to please others who reward my actions here in the immediate environment. I commonly treat them as more real and more relevant than the God that I claim to serve. I constantly find myself coming back to the Lord on my knees, asking forgiveness for my heart. And while I fail, I am a living testimony that God is faithful, and will change our hearts to become sensitive to these things when we truly seek to be changed by Him, and commit our actions to Him rather than our ambitions.
I desire an audience of One, though I must admit I am easily distracted. But it is this very understanding of my weakness that causes me to turn to the Lord for strength, and when I do, I find myself serving at work in ways that even surprise me. And ever so often, the Lord fills my heart with such joy at this service, that I get just a small taste of how wonderful it will be in eternity when we finally see clearly, and get to have the one true audience that we may serve for all time.
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